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If there's one thing that's messing with me right now is how sleepy the sertraline is making me...
Glad I overcame the headaches and dry mouth, still having vivid dreams but I don't care as they're not scary and I am sleeping well at night. Still spacing out sometimes but not often.
I am not sure if I have noticed anything different in my anxiety and OCD. Maybe I feel a little better but not sure if it is a placebo effect... We will see. Have been on half a tablet for a week and yesterday was the first day of a full tablet at 50mg, so I will need to make a follow up app with the GP to see how I am doing. 

I have my first therapy appointment today, I thought it would be over video call but I think it's actually telephone, but that's fine. It's later this evening between 6-7. I will see how it goes. It is exhausting divulging stuff about my anxiety and OCD over and over, but it may help. I really hope so. 
I'm just so sleepy all the time  I could nod off just writing this!

Something that's keeping me awake tho and something I love doing is going to the recent activity here and reading the latest entries and having a look at people's profiles. It's so much fun to see everyone's lives written out.

Difficult assignment was done and handed in - no idea how it is, if it's even remotely good but thank God I got through it. Will have to have an extension for my next assignment for the other module but it will be fine I think. Got the books today and my sister a birthday present (Pulp Fiction art poster) now not really sure what to do with the rest of my day...

Went to see Queen Rock Montreal in IMAX at my local cinema and it was FANTASTIC. To see it in such HD was mind blowing, I loved it. I wish they could do it with every Queen concert... ever. Me and P were the youngest there which I was surprised at as I know Queen have a lot of younger fans especially since Bohemian Rhapsody came out (the film.) Some people at the back of the cinema got up and danced which I loved. It was so much fun!

Until next time.

 Hello hello hello!

So, Christmas and New Year have been and they were lovely. I always feel very blessed at those times of the year with family, friends, food and presents. It's a great time that I look forward to every year!

In terms of mental health, things were moving so slowly and are now fairly quick. I didn't pick my meds up straight away (Sertraline) so I've been instructed to take half a pill (25mg) for a week then a whole pill for another week and see how I feel and check in with my GP. It's only been 3 days so far on half a pill and I woke today with a monster of a headache and felt a little space out but I've been taking it in the morning so I think I may switch it to bedtime. I didn't realise such a small dose would do this! But I looked it up and it seems so, and I've also seen a lot of people say that if you stick through the side effects for however long they last (luckily headaches seem to only be for about a week) then it's life changing. So I am looking forward to that!

In terms of therapy, On the 9th I had an initial phone assessment where I had to divulge my innards again - a little awkward but I was completely honest. I then had a therapy app booked for the following week! I was shocked and pleased by how quick this was. However the only available day I wasn't available so I changed it so it is now for the 24th. It's over a video call which I think is perfect for me - I won't be too anxious to leave the house.

I have 2 assignments due this month. First one I am finding super difficult so asked for an extension which is Monday (22nd) I looked on the FB group for the module and others are struggling too. I think, after about 3 days of trying to do some research and really thinking about the question I have a plan, so I will be writing over the weekend because tomorrow...

I'll be seeing the Queen live in Montreal live show at the cinema! As nice as seeing it at the BFI IMAX would've been I didn't fancy the travelling to central London for it, but of course I would've. Turns out it's at normal cinemas too so tomorrow I'll be seeing it with P! 7:30 PM and I am super excited, I remember years ago they did the same thing for their concert in Hungary - I went to my local cinema at the time to see Hungarian Rhapsody. I'm looking forward to it!

Last but definitely not least I've been watching Doctor Who, I got P a box set of season 1-4 (Eccleston on to Tennant) for Christmas (He really likes the first 4 seasons and that's what he stressed he wanted) and well,  can you say Doctor Who brain rot?! I am loving it, and sad the DVD's have come to an end but it's on Amazon Prime so we can continue. I feel a special interest forming, it's all I can think about at the moment. I never thought I would enjoy it as much as I have been! So far Eccleston is my favourite doctor but really he's on the same level as Tennant... I do wonder if that will change as I go on. I am honestly really loving it. I will be reporting back after watching season 5 and onwards. 

Apart from that not much else - P had 2 weeks off which was lovely and we chilled. Been watching a lot of Doctor Who and doing a bunch of studying. We went out to eat for my youngest niece's 13th birthday and that was nice too. After the 2 assignments are in I think I will spend Feb looking for a job, hopefully by the time I do (fingers crossed quickly) my meds and therapy would've kicked in nicely... Enough for me to function more normally. 

Until next time!

So we decided to do a master dungeon on Destiny 2 last night (grasp of avarice) and I think we would've been successful if the servers didn't have to go down for emergency maintenance. Honestly, I play destiny less and less these days because of the dodgy servers and error codes - it really puts me off! I'm hoping they're trying to find a fix but there's been a lack of communication between Bungie and players (understandable considering the abuse they get on Twitter etc.) but for the genuine lovers of the game it can be quite off putting. Oh well. Maybe we'll try again tonight, but it's reset tomorrow.

I'm wondering about finding a different game to play. Maybe Cyberpunk? I'll have to look into the bugs and see if they're less too. I'm not so much of a ~gamer~ really so I'm not sure what I would play or what would suit me. It's currently half price on steam and seems fun, but we'll see.

Because of Destiny's server/maintenance issues I've made another Stardew farm for the millionth time. I can't help it! It's such a fantastic and comforting game for me. I have it on xbox, switch and on my PC via the xbox pc gamepass. I don't know how many hours over the past 5? 6? years I've played Stardew but it must be creeping up to 1 or 2 thousand. (probably novice numbers to some, lol)

I really fancy a new game to stick my teeth into, though. I've played a lot of animal crossing, stardew, skyrim... we may try elder scrolls online too, and I'm interested in Starfield when that comes out in September on gamepass. I suppose it's not long!

Speaking of hobbies, just glued my birthday memories into my notebook, as well as cinema ticket stubs. I left a space for Barbie and Oppenheimer tickets! Not long until then. I'm wondering what films will be out towards the end of year - I will have to check. I've been enjoying going to the cinema basically every month. I suppose it's a hobby now!

Also, I find it hilarious that I've searched on this site for "pobol y cwm", a Welsh soap, and there is nothing about it. Nothing! Not a community, a post, an interest. I might start a community or a different journal to write about it, or maybe I'll just ramble here about it. I'm not Welsh but it's such an addicting soap and the best I've watched - a good balance of real life, not too much doom and gloom but enough to be relatable/educational and some very lovable/hateable characters. I've been watching I think for the past 5 or so years, maybe just 4. I was influenced by my mum who has been watching for the past 15 - I would catch glimpses and get really into it and before moving out again we would watch it together - now we watch separately and discuss in depth lol. I feel like (for me, anyway) it would be fun to ramble about my thoughts here every week, so I might.

Anyway, not much else to report on, just taking it easy and fiance has a day off tomorrow, which should be fun and is very much welcome. On Wednesday I will be seeing my parents and youngest niece as a sort of second birthday seeing as I didn't see her when it was my actual birthday. It should be nice!

Until next time. X